tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78802658467533423562012-02-16T15:29:10.481-08:00joy sharphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16336984520980227563noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880265846753342356.post-71655758966745130792009-01-20T22:41:00.000-08:002009-01-20T22:52:27.607-08:00its amazing how the sea or ocean works<br />with all its strength and tenderness<br />beauty and sometimes horror...<br />that is my life summed up...<br />Never knowing when the high tide is coming or when the low tide will arrive...or the strength of the wave...the only knowledge i have is in God...which is all i need but i still struggle...b/c one one of the most important people in my life was taken in what seemed in seconds...i have stories to share and a testimony to speak but the one thing i would love its to be able to share moments with the love that i lost...no one can understand or fathom...unless they have experience what i have...no words or thoughts or hugs and kisses i receive feels empty...<br />The only on is God...i know he is there but it is hard to let Him in and sometimes hear his tender voice...There is beauty in what i am walking through in the fact that i have shared and impacted many people with my story...but wishing i didn't have the story to tell...I know God never gives me anything i cant handle...but i am the edge sometimes of just wanted to become a hermit...which i would never do but sometimes feel like it...<br />He is in control<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7880265846753342356-7165575896674513079?l=joyesharp.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>joy sharphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16336984520980227563noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7880265846753342356.post-1050512999212591282009-01-18T21:57:00.000-08:002009-01-18T22:13:25.347-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >So this is my first blog entry ever</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >and the only reason why i got it is b/c i needed some thing to write all my emotions and feelings that come with what i am dealing with.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >i never know when they are gong to hit me...sometimes its in little instances or in big ones</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >but i never know when or how long this numbness and feeling will go away?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >maybe one day but maybe never</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >i dont know when i will be able to say i am fine or everythings ok or i am doing great...and really mean it</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Nothing can satisfy what i am feeling no drug, person or word can. ever.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >i miss her and i know always will but when will i be ok?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >i dont know i am out of words and tired...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255); font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >i know you are wondering who or what i am talking about but a time will come when i will say but for now i am a broken girl with Father whos love is forever abundant and who has pain that no one i know can fathom...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7880265846753342356-105051299921259128?l=joyesharp.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>joy sharphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16336984520980227563noreply@blogger.com0